There we go, rule no.1 about chartering into unknown water, broken - Never admit uncertainty. That being said I've never been one to play by the rules anyway; fact number 1.
My name is Raissa Liann D'Cunha (Ray-Sa Lee-Anne Dee-Coon-A), I'm 18 years old, and I live in Perth, Western Australia! I've honestly been waiting to start this blog for the last 2 and a half years, but somehow up until now the timing never seemed right - I mean what was I supposed to talk about as a 16 year old girl making her way through Hell; I mean.. high school!
I feel as an individual I tend to carry a fair few extra opinions and thoughts; much more than the average human would. This could be seen as either good or a bad, and in the past year I've learnt to embrace my wild mind, my explosive personality, and all my quirky habits that deem unnatural to the rest of the world. In doing so, I've been able to finally put aside what the rest of society thinks of me, and focus solely on how I view myself - I came to the understanding that if I carried on living my life based on other people's expectations of me, I wouldn't be living "MY" life.
Social issues have always been a big part of my development as a person, whether its been racism, sexism, racial/cultural stereotyping, bullying etc. I don't intend on playing the victim role here as I believe that your situation doesn't depict your character, what does depict character is the way in which you handle the curve balls that life throws at you. Whether you choose to get back up and stay in the game, or strike out. That being said, I have come close to striking out many a times, and it's so easy to lose focus; in a split second you take your eye of the ball and the game changes.
Another analogy of myself that I often use, is that of a house. For years and years I struggled to build my house - I'm the house. I would build a few walls, paint the fence, and within minutes something or the other would swoop in and destroy everything I had created - examples: boys, issues at school, mental health, physical health, loss of a loved one, social pressures, etc. I could never figure out why my house wasn't strong enough to withstand all these blows. Until one day I had an epiphany.
I didn't have a strong enough foundation.
From that day onwards, I worked on nothing but my Foundation. I stopped depending on external factors for my happiness, and instead I searched for Happiness within myself. I sought strength from myself, I found knowledge within my experiences, and I learnt to love every inch of my soul. Once I started carrying out all these things, my foundation became stronger, and for the first time my walls had the support they needed. Yes, from time to time my fence fell, my roof got dishevelled, my walls cracked, but, I had a foundation that could withstand a nuclear bomb. And from that day onwards I learnt to live my life, to follows my dreams, to voice my beliefs, and to simply just be me.
I'm still a work in progress - as we all are - but I now have a voice, one that I intend to express in the most positive and affirming manner. I just hope that in some way my experiences can help others, and even if it's just one person, that's good enough for me.
So to conclude my first ever blog post, I'm excited to open the newest chapter of the book that is my life - I have way too many analogies - and share it with you all.
I can't wait to see what happens next, so until then, thank-you all for your support, I LOVE YOU ALL ♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎
Rais xx
